Tuesday, April 2, 2013

My Best Intentions

Well, it's only been 8 months since my last post.  That's not SO bad, right?  Right...Hence, the name of my post.  I am constantly coming on here looking for posts from my friends in hopes I can catch up with them, but I never post anything myself.  I always think to myself, "I NEED to start writing in my blog again!"  Then something comes up and I don't do it.  For example, for the longest time my excuse has been school, then it was kids, then it was moving into a new house (which I also need to blog about, or at the very least, post pictures of), or one thing after another after another.  I am starting to run out of excuses, so I am not going to have them anymore. 

To fill you all in, it has been a crazy 8 months.  Christmas and all the great holidays came and went, and at the beginning of February this year, we found a new and bigger house that we LOVE!  I seriously couldn't ask for a better place.  It's beautiful!  Plus, I finally can have my doggie.  That's another blog post as well.  This one is about my intentions. 

I can remember conversations with my buddy, Kim, in Utah before we moved.  She told me that after much soul-searching through a class she had taken, she had come to realize that she was addicted to "starting things".  I thought about that a lot since then.  I even mentioned it to my sister-in-law, Penny, and we both came to realize that we are that way too.  I have especially noticed it about myself lately.  I am starting to feel very low, I think because of how I am feeling physically.  I am in the worst shape I have ever been, and the heaviest.  So, I think up all these plans in my head about what I am going to do to change that.  Yet, I can't seem to get myself to follow through because I am so unmotivated and tired.  Yet, I know that I am unmotivated and tired because I am not getting up and moving.  It's a mean and vicious cycle.  And, no matter how much I tell myself I need to change, and no matter how many people offer me advice and encouragement, I can't get myself motivated.  Again, hence the name of my blog.

Not to worry, I am not seeking advice--mostly I am just venting my frustration.  I know my AHA moment will come eventually, just like it did back in 2010 when I ran my half.  I would love to have it come sooner rather than later, but in the meantime, I need to just keep plugging away.  Don't we all?  I mean, everyone has their things they want to accomplish, but they can't seem to find the motivation to get it done.  Hopefully we all will, since none of us have the desire to fail. 

All right, I am done now.  Maybe now that I have written in my blog finally, and I can check that one off my list, I will start finishing all my other good intentions too!