It always seems like when I decide to do something, it's all or nothing. I can't do anything half-assed and if I don't do it perfectly full throttle, I will drop it and give up. It's a frustrating part of my personality that I wish I could change. I am noticing this with my calling in church. I am the compassionate service coordinator. I have been trying to get people to essentially babysit this woman in our ward who has a multitude of health issues, but I can't seem to get people to sign up. It's very frustrating. So, I find myself feeling like I should go to the bishop and ask to be released and I haven't even been doing it for three months yet!
Why is it that we are so picky about things? Well, I guess that I am picky about things. I just can't seem to let go of this idea that I need to do everything perfectly or I shouldn't even try. I can remember when we were living in Utah, I sent the kids to my mom's for a weekend so Mike and I could gut out and clean the entire house from top to bottom. A few of my friends came to help, including my friend Becky. She made the comment that I don't do anything small. It's true! I have been contemplating lately that I would like to do the same thing to this house here, but I have no parents to send the kids to stay with. They are in Utah. I will have to wait until they come to stay a while in December. I can't wait for that day! =)